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[This post was written on 9/27 and 9/28 during the heart of FinCon 2018]
For many bloggers, FinCon provides abundant material to create a post from.
FinCon ’18 also provided me with material for a post, however this was not the post I had in mind or wanted to write.
For those viewers who frequent blogs like this, FinCon should not be an unfamiliar term.
In essence FinCon is considered THE gathering of like-minded people who share interest in all things finance.
Bloggers with all levels of experience congregate into the designated locale (this year Orlando) for four days of senses overload.
It is a wonderful opportunity for bloggers to network, make connections with vendors in the industry, and come away with some cool swag.
Or so I am told.
You see, while the majority of the bloggers I have developed a close online friendship with have descended onto Orlando from September 26 to September 29, I chose to remain planted at work/home.
Did I have some sort of conflict in my schedule?
Was I not able to get coverage/time off?
I didn’t ask, but it was likely I could have gotten the appropriate days off.
Was it a matter of money?
When asked point blank by several bloggers why I was not going to FinCon this year I really did struggle to find an excuse.
A couple of the excuses that were running through my head when confronted with this question:
- I am a relative newbie in blogging (my blog is still not even 6 months old!), and I don’t belong there.
- I even thought, “Hey I could pretend like I am the Designated Survivor for the physician blogosphere”
- This excuse DRAMATICALLY lost its significance when Jim Dahle of White Coat Investor also did not attend FinCon (trust me if you want to rebuild the physician blogosphere up from the rubble, he is the one you want to do it since it would just be a repeat of what he has already done)
But honestly these responses/excuses felt hollow.
So what was really preventing me from making my first appearance at a conference that had my fellow bloggers excited about attending for the past few months?
I could not quite put my finger on it until I came across a great post by Liz from Chief Mom Officer titled, “Wheels Up! Musings on FinCon, Imposter Syndrome, and Introversion.”
Everyone who knows me will classify me as far from the introvert spectrum as possible
During our office Christmas party for over 500 employees, for example, I have on more than one occasion gotten on stage and taken over lead singer duties with a local favorite 80’s cover band band (I performed Jump Around by House of Pain one year and It Takes Two (Rob Base) the year prior).
So I felt the introversion component of that post could definitely be ruled out as a potential root cause for me not attending FinCon this year.
That left Imposter Syndrome as the main suspect, the phenomena which is eloquently described in the post, “5 Types of Imposter Syndrome (And 5 Ways to Battle Each One)”
Between these two posts, I definitely found that this was the true source behind the decision to not attend FinCon this year:
What if I go and people realize that I have no idea what I’m doing and the gig is up?
As mentioned in the very first thing I published on this blog, it took me several years before I found the courage to launch XRAYVSN.
The doubts that swirled around me of whether I was good enough to enter this space is the epitome of Imposter Syndrome.
There are wonderful memories that have been created at FinCon ’18, none of which are mine.
The opportunity to transform virtual friends into actual friends in the real world has been lost or at the very least, postponed.
The opportunity to be immersed directly with like-minded people in a conference designed to bring this very collaborative group together has also been wasted.
As I type this I am quite disappointed that I let inertia and complacency, coupled with Imposter Syndrome, prevent me from breaking free of my comfort zone and venture into uncharted waters.
As I am already wistfully looking at photos from this conference popping up on the various social media outlets, even while the conference is ongoing, I realize that I did make a mistake and let this syndrome get the better of me, just like it had in the past.
Time is not guaranteed for anyone and who knows what lies in store for this blog or me, but my plans are to attend the 2019 FinCon event (in Washington DC) so that I can prove to myself that I am not an imposter anymore.
Even if this blog crashes in a big ball of flames, I still would like to attend as a “former blogger” and meet the people that I have grown quite fond of.
So for all my blogging friends who were attendees fortunate enough to experience FinCon 2018, I send out a plea that you will make every effort to attend the conference in 2019 so I can negate some of the mistakes I made this year and actually meet you in person.
And for those who, like me, missed out on memories from FinCon 2018 due to Imposter Syndrome (or something else), please join me as we put any doubts that we may have to bed.
Hope to see you there.
(p.s. I call “not it” on being the Designated Survivor)
[Update: I have since purchased passes for FinCon ’19, booked a room at the conference hotel, and requested the time off, so I am now officially FinCon bound.]
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Definitely come next year, no need to feel like an imposter!
I am so looking forward to it. Can’t wait to meet face to face
Your shirts alone were worth the price of admission. I’m going to ask for a Yay! Index Funds for my birthday.
Man I missed out. Hope you have a spare for me
Okay. I’m jealous of Crispy Doc. Can I get an Index and Chill shirt for my birthday? Thanks in advance! ?
This year was my first time at a Fincon. And I still feel like an imposter buying tickets to return in 2019. I don’t think the feeling ever goes away – you need to fight it consistently.
I appreciate your input. Well hopefully being a veteran of FinCon will finally put that imposter syndrome to rest. I think with more than a year ob blogging under my belt I may feel a little better about it than if I had gone this year with only 5 months of work 🙂
Thanks for stopping by 🙂
Road trip for FinCon 19? We could make it happen. I too have not attended but mainly because it was really far from California, I was on call that weekend, and my wife would have not appreciated my use of vacation days to go to FinCon. Next year though….who knows.
That would be fun for sure. I was considering driving but it was a decent journey (especially when I had to factor in supercharger stops for the Tesla to make it there 🙂 ).
Definitely hope you can join me next year. Hoping everyone I interact with is there so I can meet in person 🙂
Maybe you and i can break in the FINCON ice together lol. I didn’t get to go this year, and i do relate to you a bit when it comes to introversion, but hey, you only live once right?
It would be awesome meeting you. Think about it. Cheers!
I really hope you can make it. I’m really excited to be a part of it next year and would love to meet you as well.
I look forward to meeting you in D.C. next year. Glad you hopped on board.
You are definitely one of the people I hope to chat with in person (may have to fight through the throngs to get to you though).
Oh, no worries. I don’t plan on wearing a thong.
Wait, you said “throng,” didn’t you. In that case, I may reconsider my choice of undergarment. 😉
You know I can’t get that mental image out of my head now. LOL
You didn’t miss much. We were mostly just sitting around speculating about why you weren’t there.
I hope to see you in 2019.
LOL. I hope you guys had more interesting things to talk about than my whereabouts, LOL (I was at work by the way living vicariously through everyone’s photos on FB etc). Can’t wait to meet you at the next one!
LOL! Actually this is quite accurate! ?
I was pretty surprised that you did not attend this year’s Fincon. I think it is the perfect thing for you. I thought you were just being lazy since that’s how I roll.
Regret is such a wasted emotion. You can easily correct this snafu by going next year. You deserve to go as much as anyone. I think you are a joy to befriend on line.
And no, I shall never attend one of these things but I have fun reading my fav bloggers enjoying themselves.
Thanks MB. Although I am lazy on a lot of other issues (I actually have a post I created bemoaning that fact), I do not think it played a factor in this. Mainly thought I was to new to the scene and would be laughed out of the conference outright 🙂 I definitely plan to rectify this next year as I have already bought the tickets and booked a hotel. Now it’s just a very long waiting game 🙂 That is too bad that you won’t consider coming to one, I think you would be well received as well. Thank… Read more »
I felt similar to you especially after seeing how successful you and some others have been in your first year. A little impostering and a 5m old were more than enough to keep me home.
I also bought my tickets for next year!
I am glad you are going 🙂 Well I think you run a great website so from my view you are not an imposter and by that time we both will be seasoned vets with a year under our belts 🙂
kind words ? I appreciate the support! ?
No regrets dude. Some groupies did come up to me asking for Xrayvsn’s autograph. When I told them they were mistaken and that I was merely Millionaire Doc with no special superpowers they took back their pens in grand disappointment. Apparently being a millionaire at FINCON is not that impressive.
Looking forward to hanging out with you in DC buddy.
LOL. That would be a sight to see. Xrayvsn groupies 🙂 Definitely want to meet up with you too. Hope we can do PhysCon II (crispy doc I hope you can not only come but organize another great get together like you did last time)
“Hey I could pretend like I am the Designated Survivor for the physician blogosphere” This is a great sentence, still chuckling. See you in D.C. next year!
Looking forward to it 🙂 The first season of that show Designated Survivor was pretty awesome (but lost interest after a few episodes in the 2nd season). Inspired me for my excuse at least 🙂
Imposter syndrome is such a real thing. We haven’t been to FinCon in the 2 previous years because of my work schedule and that same feeling of “we’re not important enough yet”.
Hopefully, we can make it this year though!
I do hope you make it to FinCon 19. From all accounts we have missed out on a ton and really don’t need to miss out anymore. Let’s get rid of imposter syndrome once and for all ?. Thanks for the comment
I suspect that just like the rest of this year’s newbies, myself included, you’re going to love it. I’d say more, but to quote Fred Schwed: “There are certain things that cannot be explained to a virgin either by words or pictures. ” I don’t think I’ll have the accumulated goodwill to dump the kids on my wife for a week next year in addition to other planned boys’ weekends, but I’ll be happy to anoint you the new Physcon organizer, my friend. With the gift of hindsight, allow me to suggest that you plan a mid afternoon happy hour… Read more »
Thanks CD for suggestions. Well it is disappointing to hear that you might not be there next year but I totally understand the circumstances. Hopefully can meet in person some other time then.
There are so many important bits in here about impostor syndrome (which I definitely struggle with as well), but all I can focus on is you singing It Takes Two. Starting a petition now to require a live performance at FinCon.
Can’t wait to meet you and everyone else in real life in DC!!!
LOL. Well if that’s the case I may have to practice some again (there is a ton of lyrics and it comes at you pretty fast). I was lucky that I was friends with the band and they told me beforehand that they were going to have me on stage for that song so I got to prep for it 🙂
I bought the tickets. Haven’t booked the room yet. But I’ll be there!
You definitely should have gone, but am glad you are going next year. I, too, suffer from imposter syndrome of multiple varieties. We all do.
It’s actually one of the most helpful things I teach the residents – who all think I have things figured out. It helps them open up.
You keep being you. We will all be here to support your cause.
Really appreciate that TPP. So glad you are going because according to everyone, you were one of the big hits for this year’s FinCon so really looking forward to meeting you and having face to face discussions.
Well I don’t think you should consider yourself an imposter any more. I think your message has spread and your reach growing that you definitely have a website that belongs in this realm.
OK, now I feel like I HAVE to go just to see you on stage as you perform your lead singer duties!
I’m glad that you made the commitment to go next year, and you are going to absolutely love it!
Lol. I think you need to go whether they put me on stage or not. Lol
I’m glad that you will be joining us in DC. I never knew about imposter syndrome until I talked to you. I didn’t know it was a thing. LOL, if anybody was going to have imposter syndrome, it should have been me. My blog is not wildly successful. And I only have like maybe three posts related to finance (and one of them is Gasem’s guest post, LOL!). And rest assured that you can stay anonymous. When you register, just put XrayVsn as your display name for your name badge. And like I said earlier, everybody will respect your decision… Read more »
Thanks DMF. Really looking forward to meeting you. I’m glad you went this year and had a great time. And you most certainly belong this year and next and so on. There is a lot of work blogging so even if you don’t have many posts you deserve it (and I should have thought the same way too this year but didn’t)
Thanks for the post. I feel the same too. For me , it was already too late by the time I started my blog. August 2018. For next year one, I am still trying to convince myself of my worthiness. What will I talk about? Am I an imposter?
Reading your post gave me some courage. I will start looking into it for next year. I heard the hotels are expensive…
Thanks for the comment DBEF. I know the hotel where the conference is located at was giving a special rate but anyway you slice it, 4 nights in DC will be a hit to the wallet. I am going to try and combine it with a visit down the road to my alma mater (Johns Hopkins) which is down the road since I have been there in probably a decade or so.
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You didn’t even apply to the fincon scholarship?! Maybe you can next year!! Would love to meet you and your girlfriend hehehe.
Definitely hope to see you next year. I figured with my income I would not qualify for the scholarship plus would be better to save it for someone who might not have attended it without one. But yes hotel and passes are booked for fincon 2019. Very excited
I know I’m late to comment, but I totally know how you feel. I get that Imposter feeling too and hesitated to go to FinCon because I’m not really a true “finance” blogger. What stuck with me was remembering PoF say to me that he wished he had gone to FinCon the first year of his blog because there was so much to learn even as a newbie. I’ve been blogging for several years but want to do so more seriously, so it was great help for that. Now I feel like I’m part of a “doctor writer” network, and… Read more »
Any comment is much appreciated, never mind the timing of it ?
Yeah I wish I went this year. I know I would have picked up a lot of tidbits that would improve blogging as well as make some great connections.
Lesson definitely learned. Glad you overcome imposter syndrome and did it. Most definitely have to meet up. I love the doc blogging community and will be nice to put real faces behind website names